Getting more active

I'm loving summer so far.  I keep looking back to a year ago, at this point I was a mess again.  I was so depressed and socially anxious I wouldn't leave my apartment for days, it was horrible.  I'm still really sick but I have a life now, healthy relationships, hobbies, and a good job.  Depression wasn't being sad, it was being frozen, stuck, grey.  I'm so thankful just to have interests again! Anyone who has been through it knows exactly what I'm talking about.  Anyways this isn't going to be a big "then and now" post, that was just something I had been thinking about.

Energy and appetite are perking up, I'm taking it easy with the exercise still.  Its embarassing but I literally haven't had a regular exercise routine since November.  Since Christmas my body gradually broke down and I was able to move less and less.  May was almost no activity at all, so as you can see I'm really not fit.  This doesn't bother me, it just means I can't "givr" the way I normally would, at least for a few weeks.  I respond to training extremely fast, so my muscles often outgrow my fascia/connective tissue and I become injury prone right away.  Like so many things in life I've been stubborn and learned this one the hard way so I know what I'm getting into.

We are finally building the sauna at work.  Friday I felt pretty good so I volunteered to help install some of the boards.  It was definitely exhausting, I only worked 4 hours in total with break, but it felt great to work with my hands again!  Basically every part of me other than my spine misses flooring now.  Installing the wall paneling was very similar, but the nice part was I got to stand upright the whole time.  It was also a nice to change back to a kind of work where I didn't need to plan on deliver a lesson, or be "engaged" with the public.  I guess that's part of what I miss about flooring.  Getting started is always a real headache and can be slow, but once your rows are started you get to just crank up your favorite music and nail shit to the floor.  I don't have to worry about looking the other way and some beginner popping their shoulder out.

I worked about 4 hours Friday, and then Saturday my back was SORE!  Definitely took the day off.  Since then I've done 1-2 more easy dumbell workouts with my good arm, feeling a little more "into it" each time.  I'm thrilled to be moving off the couch again, but not quite excited to "work out" yet.  I'll get there. 

Let's see what else.....have been slacking on my homework for my online ed psych a bit, although I wrote another midterm on Monday and feel like I did well on it.  I'm sleeping better but mornings are still terrible, I wake up around 630 and am bloated and nauseated until off and on until around 10.  It's like waking up with a bad hangover every single day.  Not painful so much as intense discomfort and brain fog.  It makes it really hard to get my day started.  This is part of why I need to limit myself at nighttime when I feel awesome, I can only take on as much as I'm actually going to be able to recover from the next day.

Anyways time for breakfast (aka a cup of tea for now).

Cheers!