Feeling so much better! Here's how:

Been a while since I’ve blogged.  I’m certainly in a different space now, it feels great.  To start off, here are a couple of progress pictures.  The surgery was March 11 and as you can see, it kicked my ass pretty hard:

 April 7, 127 pounds

May 11, 140lbs

 Other than the occasional panic attack every couple of weeks, my anxiety is almost completely gone.  Its so liberating to be able to just go out and do things as I please!  No more sick queasy feeling in my chest every time I try leave the house!  Since surgery I've been able to accomplish the following:

-Gained 20lbs
-Finished my exercise nutrition course
-Coached a handful of classes at the gym
-CRP (inflammation marker) down to 8.0 For a reference, the lowest I’ve ever had it since being sick was  47.  0-7 is considered healthy range, so I'm almost there
-Most importantly, I’m enjoying life again!  I’m having so much fun just going for walks to the river, driving home to the acreage, cooking new recipes, and exercising for the pure thrill of it. 

All with the following also happening since the operation:

-blood clot in my right leg
-2 percutaneous drains for massive abdominal abscesses, left for 3 weeks then right for 3 weeks.
-Huge incision over my belly button, without staples.
-1 overnight stay after removal of 1st drain, another night in emerge to get 2nd drain pulled.

One of the drains I lived with:

This didn’t happen all on its own though, I had to facilitate this recovery.  After letting myself rot for the first few weeks, I knew I had to take active steps if I wanted to speed the healing process. I committed to a 30 day exercise program, stuck to an extensive supplement regimen, and I committed to a morning routine consisting of the following:

-Push ups as soon as rolling out of bed.  10 seconds down, 10 seconds up until failure.  At first, I could only do one, by the end of the month I managed 4 or 5.  Anyone can do this!  It took less than 2 minutes out of my day each morning.
-Meditate for 15 minutes.  (I use the app headspace)
-Weigh myself

I sleep with my phone on airplane, and make a point of not turning it on until those 3 things are done.  Same thing goes for the laptop.  I’ve found texts and emails to be an even worse focus sucker when you start your day with them. I use another app called askmeevery , where you can have it ask you anything you want via text and email.  Every morning I get a text asking “how many push ups”, and another asking “how much do you weight.”  This is awesome for accountability, the guilt of typing in that “0” is enough to make you just do the damn push ups.  My other favourite part about the app is that it automatically charts and graphs all your data for you, so you can see your progress in a nice visual.

Side note- those who think weighing in every day is excessive, here is my reasoning why.  We can lose and gain significant amounts of weight even during the course of a single day.  This is due to fluctuating hydration status, how much we eat, and other factors.  A lire of water weights 2.2 pounds, so you can drink/pee that amount without even knowing it.  The amount of carbohydrates stored in the body also influence how much water weight we hold onto. Since this number can change so much without your weight “actually” changing, I like to weigh in at the same time every morning, and then use a weekly average to tell where I’m at.  Also, the scale should not be feared!! Use it as a guide for future decisions, not a judge of past ones!

At night I get 2 more questions, one asking me “what did you eat today”, and one asking “what are you grateful for”.  This is my foolproof way of keeping a food log and gratitude journal.  Writing a food log is a humbling, surprisingly effective way of cleaning up your diet.  There's something about actually writing down “ate liter of cookie dough ice cream” that makes you really, really not want to do it again tomorrow. The gratitude journal is a super effective way of well, simply being happier!

As for diet, I tried eating super clean at first, but that resulted in me just picking at my food and really not eating anything.  Eventually I just started eating whatever the hell I felt I could get down, and my body actually thanked me for it at that point.  2000 cals of ice cream and toast beat the hell out of 400 calories of  healthy food.  So for the first 4 weeks or so I really let myself go diet wise, though I don’t feel guilty about it.  With such a low appetite, having a craving for anything at all was a blessing so I indulged it, whether it was mac n cheese, bread, or ice cream.  I loaded up on that stuff, and I’m not going to lie, it was awesome.  Eventually the novelty wore off though. Weeks 5-present I’ve been doing better by eating much more healthy foods throughout the day.  I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t still enjoying some nighttime treats once my healthy “checkpoints” have been met for the day. Just because I’m conscious of it doesn’t make it any more acceptable, but its an evolving process.  If I’ve learned anything, its that small changes are the only sustainable ones. I've always found that adding good foods works better than subtracting bad ones.  Eventually the good replaces the bad, and if you eat the right stuff you won't crave the wrong stuff after a while. 

I started my first formal exercise May 11th.  A simple 30 day living room workout.

My reasons for going with this one were that:
-Strength (not silly cardio) training "wakes up" and activates your body into healing mode.  This is why simply having muscles keeps you from aging.
-it features compound movements working major muscle groups
-extremely beginner friendly, can be done anywhere
-simple and effective progressions
-written by a reputable coach (Brett Contreras is awesome)

Since 250 reps seemed a little silly, once I reached day 15 I went back to day 1 but added weight. I really wish I took pictures of my first couple workouts. At the beginning, I was so feeble I had to have stools on either side of me for balance  Keep in mind, for most of this program I had a 4 inch wire jammed in my side near my kidney. By the end, I was completing 150 loaded squats (broken into sets of 10-20) either holding a kettlebell , wall ball, or even an empty barbell.  After completing the 30 days I managed to pull of some real front squats!  May have only been 75lbs, but I felt like superman!

First set of "real" squats @ 75 pounds.  A couple months ago this was unfathomable:

My supplement regimen has been the following:

-1Tbsp high EPA fish oil
- 3-5 grams vitamin C spread throughout the day (for collagen synthesis for my incision)
-2 tbsp hydolyzed collagen protein (Incision repair, this stuff has also helped my arthritis more than any other supplement)
-1 B100 tablet
-800mg folinic acid
-30 000IU vitamin D
-25 000IU vitamin A for 2 weeks, then every other day
-Cannabis oil, in the form of either capsules, food, or blended into tea, totaling 100mg CBD and 400mg THC per day (Most effective medication I have ever used, bye bye prednisone, no more painkillers!) 1:1 CBD to THC is optimal, but I can't quite afford it.   
-2 shakes per day, each containing 7.5grams arginine, 5grams ornithine, and 10 grams glutamine.  This is an effective stack for surgery recovery, but also for healing sports injuries.
-Lots of MCT oil and Avocado oil in smoothies
-Magnesium (glycinate) 400-600mg per day
-Topical magnesium spray, 20 sprays at night.
-15mg zinc (gluconate) and 2mg copper, 2x per day

Of course none of this progress would be possible without the incredible support I have.  I am extremely fortunate to have wonderful friends and family backing me up every single step of the way.  Thanks everyone!

Cheers